Adrienne

What is late?

2009-06-30T04:22:05Z

I just scrolled down and saw entries where I said it was late and then noticed that they were posted before 1AM. That'd be considered early now. That's really weird. I guess time is different here where everything closes at night, parents enforce curfews (other people's, not mine of course), and people go to bed. Sandwich is kind of screwy. Nice place for vacationing though.

Cape Cod:

2009-06-30T04:11:05Z

- "representative" jury this morning - all white, mostly over 55, upper middle class (inferred from clothing and manner), fairly literate (according to the novels they were reading)
- going to Twin Acres with Emily and Katie and taking ice cream to eat on the beach by the boardwalk
- eating at Sam Diego's even though it's gross and checking out EDil's coworkers with her, Claire, and Crystal
- bonfire, cigars, and illegal fireworks at the Pottey's
- skinny dipping amongst phosphorescence in the cold ocean
- running out of things to do and returning home at 11

My mum has been working to redecorate the house and such. I'm enjoying staying in my bedroom... my old bedroom?... for a few nights before my great aunt gets here and is given this as the guest room for the one week I'm here this summer. That sounded bitter. I really don't mind. This ancient computer, complete with all the pictures I took and documents I wrote toward the end of high school, is here in the bedroom. Weird, huh? As fun as the photos and old essays are, the best thing I've found by far is the "1-1-2007 lists" consisting of "list of lists to make", "list of things we did in 2006", "list of things to do in 2007", and "list of things to bury for the futre". This is totally adorable. I'm so glad I'm such a nostalgic collector. I collect and list things thinking about how it'll be to look at later, and I fully appreciate the nostalgia when "later" comes, as noted by the fact that I can't bring myself to delete this LiveJournal. It's not like I use it, and I very, very rarely even look at it, but it's so worth it. Haha I'm updating my LiveJournal now.

thinking

2007-02-12T23:51:51Z

Hello, livejournal.

Today's my Dad's birthday.
I went to the mall with Mark to pick up his new glasses.
I have a box of Winnie the Pooh Valentines.
I have to learn how to play Simon Says in Hebrew 'cause I told my class I could teach them.
I still haven't corrected their tests.
I have a bunch of Latin Valentines and we're making Spanish ones tomorrow.
Mark won't tell me what he got.
I didn't really get him anything... again.
I think I'm going out to dinner with my parents tonight.
Auntie Kathy called and mom reminded her that I want Mari to come in June.
I haven't written to Mari in a long time. I should do that.
I'm not hungry, but I am kind of thirsty.
I don't like English class.
I especially don't like it when Emily is skipping.
Today didn't feel like a Monday.
Next week is vacation. :)

I love lj.

crash2173 @ 2007-02-10T10:41:00

2007-02-10T14:41:33Z

I should be doing homework but then I thought of livejournal. I took 5 tries to log in 'cause I couldn't remember my password but now I'm here and I'm not sure why... there's nothing I really wanted to do. I just don't want to work.

Whoa. livejournal.

ew

2006-06-29T14:11:47Z

I'm sitting here dripping sweat and covered in mosquito bites. I actually got my brother to go jogging with me this morning... just a short jog. He said he'd come every Thursday!

... but now I have to wait until he gets out of the shower.

I thought I'd do some other workout stuff...

but Kawika's visiting (weird!) and I don't like to be gross in front of guests.

I'm having a luau later if it doesn't rain :)

Afri

2006-06-25T13:30:18Z

I had left Afri in the greenhouse a couple of days ago, planning on going back to repot him when I got the chance. I went out this morning to transfer him into his new home only to find that some kind soul (my mother) had done the deed for me. That was really nice of her to do that for me 'cause I hadn't gotten around to it and I probably would have made a mess doing it and ripped off a leaf or two or something.

... BUT, knowing little about the care of the delicate African Violet, after she finished planting my lovely plant, she watered him... from the top... getting water on his leaves. As Grandma had told me when I got my fuzzy green pet in September 2002, you must water him from the bottom to avoid wetting the leaves. Although he never exhibited the pretty little purple flowers he had that first week in September, he remained perky and green and fuzzy as ever.

Now he's flimsy and yellow... She felt bad when she saw her mistake... but it was really my fault for leaving him there... I should have taken care of him myself sooner.

I hope he gets better.

crash2173 @ 2006-06-24T21:05:00

2006-06-25T01:23:07Z

Today was a pretty shitty day (stupid cell phone... grrr... stupid humans!), besides the weather and getting to sit with Emily for a bit before she had to run off to that concert that I wish I had gotten to go to, too, but I had to work. I'm sick of.. everything.. I just want to sit with Emily and numbly watch tv or do something else unproductive like that.

At least Crystal and I did our Spanish asignatura last night... it was actually more successful than I was expecting.. and I got to hang out with Crystal, which makes me happy. Yeah, made me feel like I was being productive at 1:30 in the morning when I couldn't sleep instead of just writing crap here.

I was thinking I'd call off the trip to Maine.. but i think they're looking forward to it and Grandma and Grandpa are expecting us.. and that just wouldn't be fair of me to change everyone's plans, right? I'm a such a bitch. I guess I'll just sleep and eat and passively let them all enjoy each others company. It could be a nice escape.

Arg! Oh well, bad days just make good days look better, right?

Forced optimism is fruitless.

I love Emily Jane.

.. and miss her.

.. and Mark.

Here we go not sleeping again.

2006-06-23T04:39:34Z

I would call myself a morning person. I could probably sleep right now if I really tried. I kind of feel like I'd miss something if I retired right now.. but, as you can see from my updating the lj, I'm super bored because nothing is really going on. Besides, the best time to reflect is right now... late night/early morning entries entertain me most. But again, that might just be 'cause I don't have much going on around these hours and this journal here is what I find that's open... and a few people on AIM that I guess don't have much to say since I have time to write here.

Hm.. trying to read that paragraph above.. not sure if it's real sentences.. complete thoughts... words... don't bother reading.

So it seemed like Mum was thinking of keeping Barbie for herself. I didn't ask for a new car.. i didn't want a new car.. I was in no way expecting one at all, so I shouldn't be upset that they changed their minds about giving it to me. But I am. Or was.. 'cause it does seem that I've convinced them. I wouldn't care if they hadn't taken my day the other day and brought me up to Marshfield and had me test drive cars and pick out the one I want. After doing that how could they just be like, "oh that's nice that you picked it out.. we were just kidding, though, you can't drive it." But they were arguing this morning that Baxley (though they don't call him that) is a mess. I cleaned him on Friday before I let her drive him to RI...... and she saw that he was clean and they should know that I take care of him.. but they don't, 'cause they don't realize that their neat-freakiness really did rub off on me even if it didn't on Brian. But yeah... I took out alllll of my stuff and organized it into purple baskets in the back room so that she can see that I've moved out of Baxley and I'm going to take over Barbie as soon as her blinker's flashy.

I did jog over to Alex's this morning... or yesterday I guess 'cause now it's Friday. I'm not sure if she knows that, though, 'cause she didn't get out of bed... or even lift her head... and we know that she sometimes speaks without comprehending that she is responding. So cute.

and I went to IHOP and had a pretty awesome breakfast with Crystal and Sarah Frye. Oh! And we went to Filene's basement after to just kinda look around. We ended up grabbing armfuls of dresses to try on.. just for fun. But I found this super fun gown. It's not even a dress I can wear around.. I'm thinking it's going to be prom dress for next year. Yeah, I bought it. So I guess I have my prom dress for next year. It's all beady and pink and orange and made me think of Jessica Rabbit. Haha. Ohhh! And the best part: originally valued at $288, marked $70, go up to the register to find that it's only $35!!! Made me think that I can't wear this to prom next year... that would be just too cheap! I thought I got a bargain on my dress this past year but that was over $100 more than this one. We figured it meant that I can spend a small fortune on shoes to make up for it :-P

So I guess I'm ready for bed since I'm just sitting here running on about nothing, listening to the radio 'cause I still have no music on the computer and I probably never will 'cause I will not get attached to something that can so easily poop out on me (speaking of pooping out, I definitely need a new cell phone... even Freddi said it was old.. grr stupid, evil piece), and... you won't believe what else I was just doing sitting here... so I'll tell you. (Besides looking through old stuff.. new stuff.. you know, all that junk I just kinda keep and should probably throw out or at least never look at for another 20 years... ) I was looking through baby names. Why?!? I don't know.. it just kind of popped up and I went with it. Wicked random. Kind of pathetic way to spend a night alone, actually. Why am I alone? I should have called in and went to see Guster. Jo could've handled it. Oh but she was bleeding, poor dear. Whatever. It was a good day, anyway :-)

Whoa.. I just got a rush of meaninglessness. Why am I writing any of this? No one's ever gonna read it. It'll just be deleted someday. Why do people write in journals? To get out feelings and such... but I do do that to people. I really don't need to write all this insignificant garbage.

Well... it was a good day, anyway. Let's be happy, shall we? I'm going to Ogunquit in a few days! Woo! Oh but I don't know if I can really bring 4 others... not that I think Grandma and Grandpa won't welcome all 5 of us.. I just don't think I should overwhelm them like that since only 3 of us were planning on going before. Maybe someone won't be able to go.. it's not definite yet.

Umm.. not gonna worry right now. It's bed time.

Or couch, whatever.

Happy Summer!

2006-06-22T05:18:08Z

That's right, today's the first day of summer. Wooo!

... and what a fabulous summer vacation it's been so far.

I did the family thing at Liv's bat mitzvah service/party over the weekend... so that wasn't really part of vacation... but yeah. ... and Monday and Tuesday I did regular weekend-y stuff around town with people and Mark and band practice so it didn't really feel like vacation.. just weekend-y. Extra Mark, though, 'cause he's gone to Oregon for the week for Mike's wedding. (Mrs. B gave me a kiss before they left :) ). And I found where I want my senior picture taken... in the most awesome tree in Mark's back yard... yeah.

Oh, but not so regular stuff: got another new car! Am I the most spoiled JAP ever, or what? My third car since I've gotten my license, not because I ruined anything, just 'cause my parents wanted them.. and haven't paid a cent (that I know of) for any of them. You'd think I'd be happy with that.. but I'm not proud of being spoiled. Yeah, so that came today but I'm waiting to take it 'cause one of the blinkers doesn't work. I think I'll probably end up sharing Baxley and Barbie with my mum 'cause I think we both want Barbie. She's prettier... even though she's white.

BUT THEN! the summer vacation-ness began!

Yesterday afternoon Colleen, Ashley, Sarah Frye, Brittany, and I tie-dyed in Colleen's basement. Pretty fun sitting around a trash bag on the floor and using water bottles because we didn't have enough squirt bottles and Colleen had introduced Ashley and me (former twist-and-dippers) to this technique. Yeah, it was pretty cool but then when we went back today and rinsed them out, all the yellow and red came out. We're thinking it's 'cause they were older I guess. So we'll probably bleach all these newly slightly pink articles and try again some other time.

Yeah.. and after tie-dying, Ashley came with me and hung out while I worked the shack wtih Alex (my last shift pretty much.. so glad it was with my favorite co-worker there)... and we went to Emily's to catch the end of a fire in the woods that Emily, Cayla, and Amy were roasting marshmallows on... and then Ashley and Emily slept here. So that was pretty much one of the summeriest-vacationiest days.

Today was spent out and about... Ashley's pool, Colleen's house with tie dyed disappointments, having dinner at that restaurant that Crystal's mom works at (can't remember the name..), at the Potteys' for a bonfire... Throughout the whole process I had the pleasure of spending time with Ashley (of course.. hehe my new buddy that's been coming around with me the past couple of days.. I love it!), Emily, Colleen, Sarah, Crystal, Brittany, Katie, Eric, Marc, Claire, umm.. those other boys at the Pottey's house that I didn't really know.. one of which smelled pretty much wicked awesome.. kinda like..

Oh! And I got a really fabulous e-mail today. Elias sent me a conversation I had on AIM with Colleen last July. Not really sure why he did that. Not really sure why I actually read it all just now. That probably has something to do with why I'm not sleeping at the moment... which I so should be 'cause I'm planning on going jogging and stuff before IHOP tomorrow morning..

.. but of course that's not the real.. or only.. reason why I can't sleep 'cause I don't really care that much about any of those past affairs. What's really irking me is that while I was sitting down here reading that and whatever, Mark called to say goodnight! But my reception is poor. He did leave a rather nice message but he doesn't get very good reception where he's staying and I was unable to reach him when I called back. It's kind of weird to go to bed without a list. I'm used to my lists every night. I don't really like this. No one should ever be without a list. I guess I'll have to make one for myself....

... but I can't really do that in writing 'cause that'd just be weird.

You know what else was kind of weird? Trying to remember my password to get into my LJ. I love it, though, so it made me happy when I remembered. Hehe... what fun.

So I'm just gonna go now... make a list and go to bed... G'night :)

crash2173 @ 2006-04-08T10:45:00

2006-04-08T14:47:02Z

Why, hello there, livejournal.

I'm.. umm.. wasting time 'cause I don't feel like doing work... but I really do have a lot of work to do. So umm... I'll go do that.

It was nice to see you again.

Hasta luego.

"Send me a postcard, drop me a line stating point of view.

2006-01-19T23:59:33Z

Indicate precisely what you mean to say, yours sincerely wasting
away.
Give me your answer, fill in a form, mine forever more.
Will you still need me, will you still feed me, when I'm sixty
four?"

SoFtBaLLcHiC2454: of course and i'll love you even mroe when you're 65

my lil halo 4454: ummm duh
my lil halo 4454: did you make that up ?
crash2173: haha
my lil halo 4454: did you ?
crash2173: no!
my lil halo 4454: oh
my lil halo 4454: well im not so impressed now

Oh wow... just wow... I'm... appalled.

I'm kind of bored... 'cause I haven't had homework in a while... supposed to be studying... and I came home early today 'cause they've been upset that I don't come home in the evenings... so now I'm here... at home... I don't see how it makes a difference but whatever.

Finals next week... what?! How does that appear out of no where... we're, like, in class learning and stuff... or maybe just playing games and not learning.. whatever... and then all of a sudden *poof!*

Um.. what am I doing? dfsjakl;

bye.

ow.. my face

2005-11-23T14:37:16Z

I'm swollen and sore 'cause I got my wisdom teeth out yesterday. Before I went, I went to school to take an English test, quiz, and pass in some research I did for English, and I passed in a physics lab and went to talk to Ms. St. Pierre. I should have studied more for the English exams, oh well.
The nurse lady that had to put the IV in my arm screwed up twice. First of all, I don't like needles and I was kind of tense so she's all like "Don't worry, this'll be fast." Then she sticks me and misses the vein. She tries to move the stupid thing around in my arm to push it in but it doesn't work so she has to pull it out and try again. The second time she said she got it but I guess it fell out.. so she started pumping the stuff into my arm and it reeeeally hurt but I didn't say anything 'cause I thought it was supposed to be like that. She kept asking me if I was getting tired and I was like, "umm I guess.." and then she looked at my arm and it was all swollen and she was like "OH! It must've fallen out! It's pumping all that fluid into your arm! That must hurt!" and I'm like, "yeah.. a little" and I started tearing a little. She pulled it out of my arm again and did it in the other arm the next time.
That's all I remember until some other lady was squeezing my arm trying to get me to walk to the car. I was like "I can do it!" and my mom's like "oh yeah? try it." She let go and I kinda swayed... so they grabbed me again.
First thing I did when I got into the car was take a picture of myself. I was chewing on my tongue 'cause I didn't know what it was in my mouth. I was like "what's this, Mom?" and she's like "Stop biting your tongue.. that'll hurt later." yeah.
Emily came over around 4 with a peanut butter chocolate smoothie and Titanic. She had never seen my bed unmade. Jess came over for a little while to see me. Alex stopped by with pudding and ice cream. Mark came around 9:30 (on a school night! hehe). Claire, Sophie, and Matthew called me. I felt pretty loved.
I drooled all over my pillow last night... bloody drool... in the shape of two penises.. it's kind of weird.

I wanted to write about October and November that I haven't written about... but I'm feeling kind of sick and dizzy so I'm going to go take a nap instead. Maybe later.

aww livejournal

2005-11-07T02:33:06Z

so i want to update. but i want to sleep. so here's the extent of my entry... i suppose i'll do it later. and i'm going to bed... because i can.

i love emily jane.

Yay! October!

2005-10-02T04:31:05Z

Today was the first day of October.. actually yesterday 'cause it's after midnight now.

So.. September was extremely busy. I don't think I had any time where I had nothing to do. Field hockey practice everyday. Mounds of homework every night. Out at games half the week and working on days I didn't have games. There's a bit of chill time on the weekends I guess.. but I'm usually practically dead from doing everything else.

Field hockey's undefeated.. both teams.. I guess I'm on both? I kind of thought I was on JV but then I was told I was on varsity.. and I do wear a varsity uniform.. and play with them sometimes... but I really don't care. I'm in worse shape now than I was before the season started. I'll have to start working out more when I have the time. I don't really have time for that.. I hardly have time to sleep and eat regularly. It's over at the end of the month (yay!)... or so I thought... Amy said if we make it into the playoffs we could be playing until the middle of November.. sigh. I'll have sooo much more time for stuff when it's all over. My life revolves around the field hockey schedule at the moment... it's sucking it up... not that I don't like it.. but whatever.

I got hit really hard in the knee Friday at practice.. my bad knee. It really hurts. My mom had been saying she wanted me to get it checked... she's going to freak out when I tell her I got hit there.. and show her how it's all purple and lumpy... if I tell her... She kind of hurt my feelings today... whatever, though. Alex had me ice it last night. I slept at Alex's. Then I did homework this morning, got Emily, went to Ashley's, and hung out with them and Katie. We went over to that place... with the water and trees and abandoned houses and stuff... yeah. Pretty cool. Then we just kind of hung out.. we tried to make a fire and smores.. but the fire didn't work and Ashley's dog ate all the marshmallows. Then I went to Mark's and hung out there.. watched a movie.. yeah.

My classes are alright. I have Mr. Moore for precalc and physics. I'm not sure what I think of him and his classes yet... for example, he showed us a video of him jumping out of a plane and told us, "If you ever get the chance to jump out of a plane, do it. It's the most fun you can have with your clothes on." He's constantly making fun of the other teachers and making comments like that. We found an empty ale bottle tucked in the sink in the back of his room. He said he didn't know where it came from. Hmm.. he's amusing.. and I have learned stuff... so I guess he's good. And I have Ms. St Pierre for chemistry. She's so cute. And Mrs. Martin for English, which is crazy amounts of work that pretty much suck.. but I guess she's pretty cool, too. Whatever. PSATs coming up. :/

I'm going to be 17 in less than two weeks. That's so crazy.. I'm so old.. sigh. 3 weeks and I'll be able to drive people.. legally.. that'll be fun. I'm not sure if I'm going to go see Death Cab anymore. I might let Maria have my ticket and go see Guster with Emily and people in November instead. I kind of think I'd like to see them more.. I'm not sure.. whatever.

Tomorrow's Sunday.. well today... that means teaching, Challenger soccer, and football at Mark's. I'm bored... I guess I'm done.

Oh my goodness... school tomorrow

2005-09-06T01:00:20Z

I don't think I'm ready. *whimper*

I miss Alex. I can't wait to see her! They better let me go at 6 tomorrow. And then Matthew and I are car buddies.. weeee!

27: Pretty much all that.. 'cept I slept with Claire, not Nikki.
28: Claire and I made peach pie and played field hockey. Emily came here and we watched 'Arrested Development', copied Death Cab CDs for me, played with my new cell phone. My mum and dad got a buncha magazines and stuff about colleges... ew.
29: Field hockey.
30: Very rainy. Made hermits with Claire. Watched a movie with Marc and Eric; made macaroni and cheese and a 'banana surprise'. Went to Elias's house. Went to Emily's; ate cake; went to see 'Red Eye'.
31: Field hockey. Babysat Rhudes.
1: Field hockey. Oral surgeon appointment. I think I'm getting my wisdom teeth out the Tuesday before Thanksgiving.. should be fun. Traded the Alero for the Malibu... farewell Silvia, welcome Baxley.
2: Field hockey. Stayed in the city for the night.
Indiana for the weekend. It was very nice. Shopped and stuff.

Oh dear.. school tomorrow.

It's late.

2005-08-27T07:30:46Z

It is so late. I think I'm tired but I don't know. I don't think I could go sleep even if I were tired. He tells me to stay up, and I do. I make myself sick. I'm such a people pleaser.. and he's one of my favorites. I want him to be happy but I'm not good at it.. I guess I upset him a lot. I don't think he knows I want him to be happy... really try to make him happy. I'm so bad at it, he probably thinks I try to upset him. And that just ends up upsetting me, too. Sigh.. it's alright. He has Caryn.. everything's Caryn. She's so much better. Why does he talk to me at all if he has her? I guess I'll just eat my chocolate chip poptart and drink my pink lemonade and update my journal while I wait for him to talk to me... at 3 in the morning... how pathetic.

20: The usually trip to Al's. Asia Garden 4 to 8. Back to Al's to see her and Brian (for like a minute 'cause.. yeah.. I dunno). To Amy's with Emily to hang out with those two wicked awesome people. I love them.
21: Family stuff: cookout at Bunny's (Easton), Zach's 1st birthday at Holly and Matt's (Harvard). To Emily's to see her and Liz.
22: Played field hockey and stuff with Claire for a couple of hours (so not ready!). Then we went to Snake Pond (my first time in years) with a few of her brothers. Stopped at Alex's and visited with her and Tommy. Babysat for the Rhudes 4:30 to 9.
23: Al's. Went to Onset with Marc, Nikki, and Allison (Nik's friend from.. somewhere.. she had a funny accent and said 'weirdo' funny). Dentist appointment at 4 so they could check out my wisdom teeth, which are pretty big I guess. (I have an appointment with the oral surgeon for September 1st.) I went all by myself. (They don't hurt anymore. Yay. I'd never had made it through without the Ibuprofen. hehe) Then I went to Alex's and Brian Kendall and Elias came and we watched some zombie movie.
24: My mom took my car to get that piece it needed. I guess I'm going to be writing a check to them for all that insurance and maintenance and cell phone now. (They must've changed their minds.. before I just had to do chores around the house and bring Bing places.. oh well.) Sophie came over. I love Sophie. We went to Alex's and sat outside. My dad took us to Evans and Blockbuster. Then we went back to Al's to watch 'Newsies'. Soph left and Em came to Alex's to watch 'Sin City' with us. It was a day full of some of my very favorite people. Elias was going to come.. I don't remember why he didn't. Whatever. Good day. Not that the others were bad.. I just remember liking this one.. I don't get to see Sophie often enough and I hardly ever see Alex and Emily at the same time.
25: Al's. Elias visited, too. I was very crunchy.. I dunno.. they weren't helping but I managed to stop at Emily's before I went to work at 4. She made me feel better. I love her. She's so good. We are so compatible. We are so soul mates. Alex is awesome when I want to talk but I just wanted to be comforted that day, you know? Em's good at that.. she just let's me sit there with her and watch tv and pets me.
26: Went to P-Town with Nikki, Marc, and Eric. Ate pepperoni pizza; got a long pink sparkly skirt, saw dolphins on the way home. Pretty damn awesome trip. Went to Two Brothers' with Marc and Eric to meet JR and Rob G even though Mrs. Pottey made us meatloaf. Saw Rick and Andrew there, and Claire, Emily Dillan, Sean, and George. Then went to see '40 Year Old Virgin' with Pottey boys and the other two sailors. After, the 5 of us went back to the Potteys' for fire. There were lots of stars. Very nice.
Tomorrow... or, actually, today: Claire's calling to practice field hockey and stuff again. I'll have to call Amy and the Ashleys to come, too but it might be kinda early for them.. I don't know. Then I'm working 4 to 8. Going to Frank's for Layland's end-of-summer party (even though it starts at 5), leaving that at like.. before 9 probably, to go to Bri's surprise birthday party at Christine's (even though it starts at 7). Then sleeping at Nikki's I think. Yay!

I have butterflies in my tummy.. like I'm nervous or something. I don't know why. Anticipating the pain the pre-season field hockey will bring? Starting school? Removal of teeth? Dying alone in a ditch watching all the happy people on their stoops above? Combination of all?

Maybe I'm just tired. He's still talking to Caryn on the phone. I should just leave. Why am I waiting for him? I should just go sleep. I love to sleep.. to stop thinking.. my escape. Oh but that seems so bad. Life is good.. really. I am quite content at the moment. Sigh.. more so than the past two nights. I hate crying in bed.. like until I fall asleep 'cause then I get stuffy and can't breathe so well and I wake up feeling crappy.

Oh look.. he comes back.. in a much better mood than when he left. But that's because he was talking to me when he left and that makes him mad. He left to talk to Caryn, who makes him happy. Wow I should just leave.

I am content, really. Not upset at all. Definitely should leave now.

Just... be... happy..... That shouldn't be difficult, right?

Weeeeee!!!!!

2005-08-20T04:43:11Z

I'm, like, really hyper and happy and excited and all that right now. I'm not quite sure why... I mean, there's no reason I wouldn't be, but there isn't really a reason I should be, either. heehee.

On October 22nd (6 months and 1 day after I got my license), I am taking the Emilies to see Death Cab in Providence. How exciting is that?! I'm going to drive alllll the way to Rhode Island... with Emilies... legally!!! Now I just have to learn Death Cab's stuff... I don't wanna be left out with these two that seem to know everything. I must become a more knowledgeable fan.

Okay..
My trip to Ogunquit (13-14) was pretty much what I expected it to be. I love it up there. For vacationing, I wouldn't wanna live there or anything, but it's fun.. and my grandparents' house is one of my favorite places ever.. it's so cool. They make me feel loved.. 'cause it's like they love me for no reason.. just 'cause I'm their granddaughter. I don't have to do anything or anything.. they just love me anyway. Sigh.. but then I leave with my parents and it's.. different.. I dunno. So anyway, while I was there I went to the beach, at steak (didn't like it), got a buncha old jewelry from my grandma and made new stuff from some of it.. fun, slept kinda a lot, jogged around downtown (wearing bright tie-dye..), and ate the best waffles.. my grandma's Mickey Mouse ones. I love her.
I went to see 'Must Love Dogs' with Emily and Dani when I got back. It was amusing.
15: My usual visit to Alex's and back and forth all day between here and there. Elias visited, too. Went to the RLC meeting that evening. They made me talk.. I didn't know what to say when they asked me why I joined the committee... I told them my mom made me. haha.
16: Alex's, duh haha. We visited Christine, too... planning a party.. yup. Emily and Elias came over to make waffles. Elias was way late and he was the one with the waffle iron. It was pretty gross and I had to clean it but I didn't know how so I kinda did it the wrong way. I screwed up the waffles, like, a ton. I overfilled the iron waaay too much and the batter went everywhere, so I made pancakes instead.. and did some hardcore cleaning 'cause it was such a mess. Then we watched 'Joan of Arcadia'.. kinda. I went to Claire's, then to our last summer league game. Our coach took us out for ice cream at Twin Acres and she gave me this program to do stuff with pictures or something 'cause I took lots of pictures all the time.. she's very nice. After, I hung out at Claire's for a while longer before going home.
17: Babysat for the Rhudes 5 to 8. Went to Alex's and slept for like 3 hours before coming back home. I got there and she wasn't feeling well and we just slept the whole time.. from the minute I got there to the minute I left.. all we did was sleep.. kinda weird, huh? Then I came back here to keep an eye on my dad since he had had his surgery that morning, but he was sleeping and didn't even move for the whole 3 hours. Then I worked 4 to 8 and came right home after 'cause my mum wanted me to bring them food.. which I didn't get to eat at all 'cause my dad finally woke up around 1 in the morning and ate something so when I went up to eat at 2, it was all gone.
18: So my dad wasn't supposed to be driving, but when I woke up, he was gone and there was a note from him saying he was in the office with a list of chores for me to do. I spent just about all day doing those chores and running errands for my parents. Cleaning and watering and bird-feeding and stuff... and I had to go out and get more cleaning stuff, go to the bank, return the camera to the Potteys (I stopped there for a little longer than needed and let Mrs. Pottey make me grilled cheese hehe), pick up drawings for some job, and bring Brian to kung fu. Then I went to Alex's for a little while to take pictures of her for the internet haha. By that time, I was really late for our Thursday ritual, but it was still fun. We went on a walk in the woods and sat and looked at the lake and decided we wanted to go swimming. A bug flew into my throat and I gagged and coughed a lot until I threw up. We went out to Two Brothers. Cayla gave me an application.. I probably won't apply, though. We watched some of 'y tu mama tambien'. I was the first to fall asleep, for the first time.. I'm always last.
Today: Katie left early. Emily and I went to Marshland Too with her mum, Jack, and Nana. Jessica was working. I ate ham. We went back to Emily's and Em and I slept for a few more hours I guess. I left and went to Al's. Then I went to pick Brian up at his last day of baseball camp in Falmouth. He smelled pretty bad and he thought it was funny when I made him get out of the car so I could spray him with the destinkifier. We stopped to get gas and tipped the guy. Mrs. Daly took the Emilies and Jack and me to Hyannis... Emilies and I walked around Main Street and then the mall for a little whlie. I came home to get my car and then went back to Main Street with Emily Dillan to go bowling with Kaela, Eric, Myles, and Max.

I think I have teeth coming in. It hurts.

I'm hungry... lefovers.. my favorite. Bye.

so crunchy

2005-08-13T04:34:24Z

I wish to relieve them of the burden of me but at the same time I'm afraid that would make them more upset. Maybe it'll be better in a couple of years with a new location. I'm going to update my journal 'cause I think perhaps that will make me feel better... or at least make me think of something else for a little while.

6: Sarah Frye's cookout. Played badminton and trivial pursuit. I ate meatballs... a lot! Went to Sandy Neck (for the first time I can remember) and then to the boardwalk and that beach... just hung out mostly. Then back to Sarah's to make smores.. mmm. Yeah.. pretty much spent the whooole day there with people.. kinda random people.
7: Brought day lillies to Al's for her mummy's birthday. Went to Woods Hole to hang out with Sophie. We walked around. Went out on the boat to her uncle's boathouse. Played on the trampoline. Pretended to be tourists and took lots of pictures.
8: Babysat for the Glicks 8 to 12. Hung out with Alex, Brian, and Elias. Worked at Asia Garden 4 to 8. Brought food to the band at Jon's house.. yeah.
9: Babysat for the Rhudes 5 to 8. Went to Alex's. Went to Claire's then to out field hockey game. Then Claire dragged me to ultimate frisbee but I was waaay tired and not in the mood to run around so I just sat and watched. Elias came over that night... we watched Ocean's 11 and stuff...
10: Went to Alex's. Was going to go to the beach but had to work at Asia Garden from 4 to 8 so we didn't have time so I just went to Emily's before work instead. Bri came and hung out with us, too. We baked peanut butter cookies with kisses.
11: Alex's. Went to Scorton Creek with Emily and Bri. Got my car stuck in the sand. Elias came and visited with us for a bit then left. Katie showed up later. We went to Sweet Tomatoes and then back to Emily's. I got the worst sunburn I have ever had! Katie and Emily slept here. We just kinda hung out.. didn't go for a walk 'cause I accidently set off my car alarm... 1:30 in the morning.. oops... and they had yelled at me earlier that night, too... I wouldn't blame them for hating me now. But I really don't think I ask them for everything they do.. they just do it. So how can they blame me? They spoil me.. I don't ask them to. And I usually offer to take care of stuff for myself and whatever. But they're all like "don't worry about it.. we've got it.." stuff like that.. how can they bring it up now like I don't even try to help? So maybe I'm not good at stuff... but I usually try... well sometimes I think. I dunno.. I guess I'm just a horrible disappointment of a daughter.. of a person, really. I should help more.
12: My mom took my car to be serviced. They had to order a piece for me.. so she'll be taking it back for them to replace it when it comes in. Katie left early but Emily hung around and we finished watching Cruel Intentions (I like that movie) and some Veronica Mars. I babysat Christopher from like 2 to 4:30. Visited Alex. Went to the Pottey's... buncha people there.. some I didn't know. Fire and Risk.

I have so many pictures from this week. I take pictures of like everything. It's what I wanted to do.. but it's not as awesome as I thought.. but I really am addicted I think. I can't seem to stop.

So, I guess we'll look ahead. This weekend I'm going to Maine with my family to visit my grandparents.
We're not going on our little road trip through Canada to Indiana at the end of August. I was going to stay here while they went 'cause I have field hockey try outs and stuff and then I was gonna fly out for the wedding, but then they decided they have too much work to do anyway so they're just going to stay here, too, and we'll all fly out for the weekend and then come back for school. I kinda wanted to be here while they were away.. even though I was gonna have to stay with Emily or something 'cause they didn't want me staying in the house alone. But that's alright. I'll go to Canada someday.

I guess I'm done for tonight. I hope my retreat to Ogunquit tomorrow is as calm and relaxing as I'm imagining it to be. It probably won't be.. my parents think I don't do anything ever anyway.. so they probably won't like me just lounging around the nice air conditioned house. I hope I'll be able to hide at the beach. Definitely wearing sun screen this time.

crash2173 @ 2005-08-05T18:18:00

2005-08-05T22:53:21Z

Brian told me to update. I left off on the 24th, so...

25: Al's, here, Al's.. all illegally since she's grounded. Then, even more illegally, took her to Jon's to see Brian 'cause she was all freaking out and such. pfft. Pointless paranoia since he's just as infatuated with her as she is with him, in my opinion, if not more.
26: Babysat for Rhudes 5 to 8. Dentist at 9 (Dad and I both fell asleep in waiting room.. haha!) Brian came here; we went to Alex's. Went to Claire's. Field hockey game in Bourne. Went to fair with Emilies and Bryan and met Brian there. Rode the rides.. very fun. Emily Dillan screams.. I think that makes it more fun haha. Ate chicken. Won James a cow for his birthday. Sang along with NSYNC on the way home. Had to hurry to be home in time, but then it turned out that my parents were already asleep so they didn't notice my tardiness anyway.
27: Babysat Glick boy for a little while in the afternoon. Zac picked me up for ice cream. Hung out with him, his sister, Mike L, and Dan A: Twin Acres, "Man of the House"... seemed wicked random... random people I guess.
28: Claire's birthday party here... whatever details. Emily slept here.
29: Cleaned some more. Packed the car sooo full of trash and went to dump... oh yeah woo hoo. Worked the shack 3 to 10 with Alex.
30: I wasn't actually working.. well I was but I wasn't getting paid.. 'cept I took food so I was kinda getting paid. I was at the fields like all day.. from about 9:30 to 6:30 off and on. Got a job at Asia Garden. Wasn't sure how that was gonna go 'cause sometimes just the smell of Chinese food is gross but whatever. Hung out with Emily.
31: Worked the shack 8 to 3 with Liz and Alex (last day.. sigh). Visited Mark at CVS 'cause he said to. Trained at Asia Garden 5 to 8. Definitely wasn't looking forward to working. They kinda just threw me in there and it was overwhelming, naturally, and the smell was making me sick.
1: Babysat Rhudes 5 to 8:30. Babysat Glick girl 8:30 to 12. Hung with PMSing Al (ran out to get her chocolate.. she paid me haha). Worked at Asia Garden 4 to 8: wasn't as bad as the day before. I got the hang of the stuff and the smell made me hungry, not sick.. I guess it just goes with my mood.
2: Visited with Alex. Brought Eric and Sarah chips at the library then went back to the Potteys' with them to prepare for the camping trip that I didn't end up going on.. but we did have lunch and go out on the boat so it's alright. Went to Claire's.. field hockey game.. yeah.
3: Babysat Rhudes 5 to 8:30. Went to drop plastic stuff at Potteys' for the boys' camping trip even though I couldn't go 'cause my mum wouldn't let me go with all those boys and no other girls or parents.. whatever. Met Jessica and James at beach 10:30ish. We lounged, talked, listened to the radio that I so conveniently had in my car. Only stayed for like an hour 'cause Jess was gonna burn. Went for pizza. Drove around. Brought James to golf in Falmouth: near car crashes, phone call to number on truck, Java, met Jon from Plymouth (not too sketchy for a guy she met online haha). Hung out at Jess's.. fun. Hung out with Emily.. watched Veronica Mars.
4: Spent day with camping boys. Boating, jetskiing, sailing. Dan didn't make me fall off the jetski but Devin did twice. Then he let me drive it and I flipped the thing over.. oops. He took me sailing, too.. I fell off that, too 'cause he didn't tell me to move. Took Devin and Elias to get Devin's spare key (he lost his car key and wanted to go home) and Chinese food. Freddy gave me free egg rolls.. plus the employee discount.. score! haha. Slept at Emily's: watched the OC, peanut butter adventure
Today: Got a new Oasis CD from Emily, went to Java and the post office. Hung out with Mark: didn't really do anything 'cause our timing is off and we missed movies, went to mall, drove around, went to Al's but she was gone, went to Horizons but didn't see Brian, drove by Elias's but didn't stop. We pretty much didn't do anything I guess.

Now I have to go be Jewish and read the Torah for the congregation 'cause the rabbi's away. Buncha people wanted to do stuff tonight I guess. I hate how there's always stuff to do when I'm busy but never when I'm bored.. like really.. Whatever.

There you go, Brian. I'll be expecting a nice comment.. maybe a thanks for entertaining you with my boring life?

Emily's amusing me. She'll amuse you, too.

2005-07-30T23:56:16Z

Or maybe not.. maybe it's the kinda things you have to be there for... but we laughed for quite a while.

She has this balloon on a stick kinda thing from the fair... Strawberry Shortcake. I accidentally took off her stick with the rubber band.

She intricately wrapped the rubber band around my fingers. I had to untangle it using just that hand... It was impossible but the encouragement was great. "I can't do it!" "Yes you can. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!" Then she ended up helping me cheat.

I used the stick as a chew toy for a bit. Then it snapped in two while we fought over it. Emily decided her jagged end looked like a witch's finger. She demonstrated by poking me in the face saying, "Take a bite of my apple, my pretty, while I stroke you with my weird finger," in a very witchy voice with a purr/growl thing on the end. We used the sticks for sword fights. I got poked rather hard in the stomach.

I've never seen Strawberry Shortcake shows. I guess she has her own show? We're going to watch that. Emily was very defensive when I said I didn't like her. I think she looks like a bitch.. and I decided she's very homophobic... probably because I just got back from working the shack with Liz and she was reprimanding the asses there for being homophobic. Anyway, not the kind of show I'd let my kids watch, but whatever. Emily said she was nice 'cause she was smiling. I thought it was a kinda 'I-just-killed-a-buncha-homosexuals' smile, Emily thought it was a 'have-a-cookie-I-just-baked' smile. We compromised and decided she was smiling 'cause she just killed a bunch of homosexuals with her award winning cookies. The cookies won awards from the "Homophobes USA" organization. So this horrible Strawberry Shortcake character is an evil murderer.

I've now knocked over that glass of ice on the floor 3 times. Everytime it's more melted and I have to smush more water into the carpet. For some reason, I still haven't picked the it up off the floor. I think I'll just leave it there next to her bed. It's like it's kinda hidden by her blanket so you don't notice it until it's down and your foot is wet. What a stupid place to leave a glass!

close your eyes, make a wish and blow out the candlelight...

2005-07-25T02:44:50Z

hehe Boyz II Men... and I just got back from white water rafting with the coolest Jew Crew ever. The car ride is so the best part of the trip... boy band marathon, neopets prancing on my breasts, poor corrupted Charlotte. I wasn't the one to fall into the water this time! Cray, huh? Too bad we didn't have Team Slate... that would've been 6... which means we would've had Nate as our guide person... *drool* hahaha.

So, that was today... let's work from where I left off up to today.
17 (cont.): Opened Brian's presents; he got more money than me hmph. Bonded with Mari; I need to become more flexible.
18: Slept pretty much all day (wicked nasty humidity) until we went up to the city to drop them off at the airport. Bought a buncha books on the way back with my mummy (with one of Brian's many gift cards haha). Skipped the RLC meeting; I wanna make Sophie come with me to the next one.
19: Meghan was in my spot at Al's, so I didn't hang there long. Emily came here. Went to Claire's. Party planning. Lost miserably (again) at field hockey... but it was fun anyway. Saw "Wedding Crashers"; pretty funny.. or it might've just seemed that way 'cause Claire laughed the whole time. Emily slept here.
20: Went to the beach to see Al and Brian; brought my brother; locked my keys in my car (again!!!); Daiv (one of the very coolest people ever) let me take his car to get the spare at home. Found out my brother's wicked sick at skipping rocks... he found out, too... haha. Alex's gathering... saw people... like Mark! hadn't seen him in a while. Yup.
21: Went to breakfast with Jess. Then to Claire's for more planning, then Emily's, then Alex's. Emily and Katie slept here; watched Nanoc (haha), took a late walk (just up the street... 'cause we heard something, right?), played truth or dare which turned into just truth. "What the fuck is your favorite color?!"
22: Doctor's office (eep!). Pottey's... the usual. Ashley's: walked around, went to the boardwalk, watched the red moon and the pink lightening. Lightening was cool... 2 storms.. far off.. then like right on top of us and it was pouring. Yeah. Then I slept at Ashley's.
23: Cooked with Ash. Saw Snow White with Emily (eh). Watched "The Big Libowski". Slept to have energy for today!

So, I usually keep, like, everything. Like I have my boxes upstairs in the back of my closet with stupid junk people would normally throw away. Little things to remind me of stuff, you know. But, for whatever reason, I have never kept this calendar on my desk. The kind you rip the pages off.. I've always thought I should keep the pages after, but I never do. I use it like a journal now almost. I write down plans I make before I do them (of course.. 'cause that's what it's for.. so I don't forget to do stuff), but then I come back after and write down almost all the stuff I did without planning. So, basically, I'm just writing all that down in here, again. It's pretty much notes for me, so I can trigger my memory and remember stuff that I did, I guess. Laugh at myself later. Maybe I should just keep the calendar? Whatever. This way it's always here, right?
Just wanted to let you know that... so you don't think I'm, like, writing this intending anyone to read it or anything... 'cause I know this must be totally boring and pointless to you if you don't know what I'm thinking, right? But you can read it if you want, I guess... if I didn't want you to, I wouldn't put it here, right? Hehe yeah. Does anyone really read this??? Besides Emily.. loser haha!
Whatever.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

2005-07-17T04:56:49Z

I love that story. I can't believe I've never read the book!!! I must read that... soon... that'll go on the list along with all the other stuff we didn't read/watch/do last summer. Roald Dahl... yup.

Family's visiting. They're so funny... cute. Brian's thing was good. Better than mine haha. He didn't cry throughout his service like I did (he could've spoken louder and slower.. but he did excellently, of course... he had a good teacher hahaha). The weather was nice and it was pretty. The party was fun... entertaining. I got to wear my orange dress. Yay!
When I hear my parents talking about me I like to go listen sometimes for a little while. I like to hear what they tell other people about me.. what they think of me 'cause they don't always tell it right to me (and other stuff, I've come to find... not just about me. sigh). Usually I like hearing it.. for a little while anyway. It's flattering. They talk about good stuff.. how proud they are and all the good things I do. Today when I walked over, he was talking about how they caught me driving Al and how I had never done anything they had to scold me for before. Now that I've done something bad I guess they have to talk about it? If I were a parent, I think I'd brag about the multiple good things my kids did and not the one bad thing. Oh well. I think I must've just missed all the good stuff... of 3ish hours of talking, I only caught about half a minute of it haha. They must've been sure to say something nice. I was thinking... As the oldest, I can be assured that even if I'm not everyone's favorite now, I was at one point since they had no other choice muahaha! (This also means I was everyone's least favorite I guess... but we're not gonna think of it that way haha.) Hmmm... this isn't good, is it? This need for love and attention.. I should learn to do that on my own or something so I don't need to depend other people for it. I thought it'd be cool to be a hermit... like Eric ("Playswithsquirrels") and write a book thing hahaha.. but independence isn't my thing.
So I definitely need to remember to put not only a good camera that takes pictures, but one that takes video things, too, on my list. So glad Mari had one... their dancing in front of the tv was sooo amusing. Wow.. I just realized that I make lists of stuff I'll probably never do instead of just doing things. Like this wish list, and that list of things to read/watch/do for last summer. How much of that did I actually do?? We didn't even do the easy stuff like freezing milk! That's not good, either.
We're going to Boston tomorrow. Like a family outing. Fun! I dunno what we're doing. Some of them are gonna go watch the Red Sox-Yankee game.

I guess mi padre got me a job (starting in August) at that Chinese food place. I don't think I really wanna work there.. with the smell and talking on the phone and such. ughhhh. But I don't want to say no, you know? So I'll probably end up doing it. Won't be so bad. Cash maybe? That'd be cool.

Yay she's done with her shower. I need to go bond with my favorite cousin :D

blah

2005-07-12T02:49:59Z

I'm staying home this evening. I have a headache. It's kinda hot out.. or maybe it just seems that way after those cold rainy days... or after coming out of the ac. I lit a little fire in my backyard.. getting rid of some papers that no one should have to read.. good thing my family wasn't paying attention.. I think that's the kinda thing they'd get upset about. Couldn't find a broom to brush it away, used a rake. So now I'm kinda bored so I guess I'll recap the past week...
-Saturday: Red Sox game: met Wally, my hero.. I wanna be him someday, and Uncle Sam, who was carrying too much beer to do the pointing thing, but that's okay; saw the ring... big an' shiny.
-Sunday: Decorated Pottey's for Eric's birthday, worked the shack 3 to 10, went back for Eric... I guess the other guests were there for the country's birthday.. but I was there for Eric's!
-4th of July: went downtown with Al, walked around with her and the Ashleys for a bit.. Ashley M's birthday, went to Heart of Stone for the first time, searched for waterballoons, sat in the pizza place without buying anything, called Colleen to say happy birthday.. but it wasn't her birthday, hung out at the beach with Kevin, ate at Horizons. Went to the Pottey's with Emily and sailors to watch fireworks and a big bonfire with a Christmas tree on top, found my way to the other side of the boardwalk.
-I really can't remember what happened Tuesday. I think I must've seen Alex or something... I think I saw Mr and Mrs Smith with Emily and Marc that day.
-Wednesday: Hung out with Matthew.. actually did something productive for a change. We usually just sit around. We went downtown, Heart of Stone to get Colleen's birthday present, boardwalk (I have a beach sticker! but no one was there to check it 'cause it was yucky out), Sweet Tomatoes - the best pizza place ever.
-Thursday: Met Emily, Amy, and Morgan for breakfast after their de class. Went to the mall. Stuck in traffic, it was snowing, Amy strangled Emily and the two of them were screeching at the top of their lungs, kinda lost my brother. Worked 4 to 8. Kicked out of the basement by Brian and Christian. They thought I could sleep in my room.. but that doesn't work unless I have to get up in the morning, so I went to Emily's. It was Ocday so we watched tv, got Ben and Jerry's.
-Friday: Brought home breakfast for the boys, slept some more, worked 3 to 4 instead of 3 to 10 'cause of rain. Went to Ashley's: baked heaping cookies (yess), fell down stairs, she made some myspace thingy for me.. it's green and says I'm 97 years old. Watched Jon, Emily, Andrew, and Guys bowl on the base 'cause I don't bowl and I was cramping.. I ate french fries and got a new t-shirt from Andrew's car that we think Liz made for Dave... it's mine now.
-Saturday: Worked 7:30 to 6 (totally freaking out by the end.. I think no one is meant to spend that much time in the shack at once), went to Colleen's birthday party at the clubhouse by the lake in that neighborhood, parked waaay far away from the high school (first car in the line on Quaker Meetinghouse haha) and walked to see the fireworks.
-Sunday: Picked up all the little pieces of cardboard from the fireworks on the fields at the school in the morning. Pottey's: boating, swimming, jetskiing, tubing. Old Country Buffet and scary driving around Hyannis with Dan, Devin, Eric, and Marc.
-Today: Ran around the neighborhood (first time this year without my pit stop to wake up Al), took Brian to get lunch but then brought him right home 'cause he got bored of pretending to bond.. sigh.. I'll try again after his birthday and all the stuff is over. Emily's: apricated, played with the hose thing, flipped through magazine, listened to music. Babysat (first time this summer).
That field hockey thing starts tomorrow. Amy made me nervous... I'm working myself up for it to suck. I think I do that a lot... but that way I should never be disappointed, right?
Brenden comes tomorrow. Everyone else is coming Friday. We'll be done with the service and party and stuff Saturday and then everyone's leaving Monday.
I think I wanna have a party here the 22nd maybe... but I have to check with the owners of the house.. and they're kinda busy. Maybe we'll have one here later...
My head really hurts now. I think I'll go lie down or something.

What's new pussy cat? Whoa, whoa

2005-07-02T03:43:11Z

Happy July, all. I had the pleasure of welcoming this new summery month with my P.P. and Girbir at our girls' night... and Al I guess.. but she was asleep by then I think... she sleeps so much! You guys are so awesome, thanks! Em, too, even though she left. 'Twas a blast! The nest, bubble bath, excitable faucet, tv and movies ("mmm MTV... it absorbs you" haha), going through 2 boxes of tissues (sigh), cake and pizza! The best, too... marble with the good frosting... and pineapple pizza.. yess. Omg! I ate a piece of bacon by accident. I hadn't had bacon, like real bacon, in over 4 years! And then I did a wicked intense cleaning job down here. It was crazy. So my home down here is clean.. and I'm refusing to touch the rest of the house 'cause I don't live up there anymore haha.
So I was thinking, as I fumbled around for my keys like I do now when I come home in the dark, that my parents used to leave the door unlocked for me. It's weird how you don't think about that stuff until it's not there anymore and you're fumbling around outside in the dark by yourself. They weren't even home tonight... and do you think they left me a message or a note to let me know? No, of course not. I have to at least let them know where I am. They're still not home! I'm not calling them, though.. I'll leave them alone.. maybe they don't want me to bother them. Actually, I think Brian had a game tonight.. I thought that was at like 7, though... maybe they're still there?
I'm going to the Red Sox game with Eric Pottey and the little red-haired girl tomorrow. Yay! But I'm missing the birthday/4th of July party Sunday 'cause I'm working. My first 7 hour shift of the year today wasn't so bad 'cause it was with Alex, the best person in the world. Some of the other's are gonna be like torture, though.. I can already tell. Ughhh like Sunday. I wanna get out of that and go to the party.. but I can't give any days up 'cause Emily and Amber both have more hours than me this month! I was going to make Mr. Sullivan change that but then I realized it's 'cause I can't work that whole weekend of Brian's thing. Oh well. I need the money, too, if I want to be able to drive haha.
Ummm... sooo... yeahhh... no need to write about any of that other junk I guess. I'll just continue to waste air.

I like...

2005-06-30T02:01:51Z

I like being able to call Emily up and be like "Hang out with me NOW!" and then deciding to go see a movie, but then getting there and deciding as we approach the ticket counter that we don't want to see a movie and then totally changing everyone's plans and going to the beach. Yeah.. I think I like last minute changes. But I'm way prepared for stuff like that 'cause my car is now fully loaded with just about anything I could possibly need. Not what Brian needs, though.. haha had to jump off in his shorts.. loser.

I like being on vacation and not really having important things to do. I like going out on boats and kayaking!!! I've been to the Pottey's like 3 days this week and we go out on boats and stuff.. but I dropped a huge wooden thing on my foot.. it hurts. And I went to Rob's today and we went kayaking!!! and played video games.. yeah I suck at video games. Came in last EVERY time.

I like to be able to show up at Alex's house randomly and cry hysterically and take her drugs. I like Alex. omg I wouldn't be able to survive without her... and the cold medicine haha.

I like planning girls' nights! That's gonna be soo much fun... when it finally happens. haha.

I don't like being sick the first week of vacation. I most definitely can not sit at home and be sick. But when I go out, I fall asleep like all the time.. like all over the place. If I'm not asleep, I'm just wicked tired. I ran out of cold medicine... that kinda sucked. I took some of Al's but it was the nighttime kind so I was out for a good couple hours this afternoon. Oh, and running is not a substitute for cold medicine.. I don't know why I thought I'd feel better if I went jogging, but Teddy found my like crawling on the side of the road. I made him stop running and walk with me. haha

I don't like filling my car with gas. Not only am I the suckiest pumper ever, it costs like.. a lot of money! haha. I definitely used at least a whole tank in 3 days. So I was thinking I'd get a job... but then I decided not to. Concession stand and babysitting should be enough for now.

I don't like being on the outside of secrets. I'm so over him and it's stupid to be all "don't tell Adrienne" 'cause then when I find stuff out it's worse 'cause it was kept from me, you know? You know. I guess I shouldn't care.. but.. I dunno.. sigh.

Wait.. this was a list of things that I liked about today and stuff.. hmm I guess there are some things I don't like on there, too. Well... positive thoughts... things to look forward to:
-working the shack with Alex this weekend.
-Red Sox game Saturday for Eric's birthday.
-the FAIR is coming! ooo I'm going to be at the beach everyday and the fair every night, I've decided, 'cause I'm a loser like that.
-Mari and other cool cousins are coming! Wow I haven't seen them since.. a long time 'cause I didn't go to Hawaii this year. That'll be fun.
Hmmm... what else? Checking the calendar... looks like working, babysitting at 5 in the morning, rafting with Matthew!!! uhhh... and free time for all the cool people who want to use it with me!
-GIRLS' NIGHT! Tomorrow perhaps? Let's hope so. mmm cake...

I love you all... almost haha :P